about me.
personal file.
BIO_DATA
I’ve always been into video games, but not just in the normal "play after work" way. I get stuck on how they work underneath. Mods, exploits, scripting, automation etc, this doesnt mean i do not respect authenticity and skill when it comes to playing video games.
No i dont go around public lobbies cheating thats low iq behaviour lol.
COMPETITIVE_ANALYSIS
I like competitive games a lot more than I probably admit. Endless grinds don’t bother me at all honesty,they focus me, i love griding while watching a show on my other moniter as background noise, eating snacks. For me rank also matters. Not because of ego in the abstract, but because it’s a clean signal. You either improved or you didn’t. No excuses, no interpretation.
Honestly, ego-driven communities don’t put me off. They fuel me. Pressure, trash talk, people taking things too seriously, that friction sharpens me. I’d rather be around people who care too much than people who don’t care at all tbh its more entertaining.
> Primary Systems: Minecraft (Competitive/Modded), Hytale, Valorant, CS:GO, R6 Siege, Terraria.
I like steep learning curves and systems that punish mistakes. If a game lets you get comfortable too quickly, I lose interest very quickly.
SYSTEM_FATIGUE
That said, I’m kind of bored of games right now. Not in a dramatic way, more like I’ve played alot of them and nothing really keeps me locked in or interested long enough.. i now find myself loading up a game and just staring at the menu not doing anything... i wish i could experience playing Rayman Hoodlum Havoc as a kid again, nothing will ever beat that feeling. i also watch alot of TV shows
> Archived Media: The Office, Prison Break, Breaking Bad, The Sopranos, Arcane, Dexter, YOU etc.
Familiar shows, low effort, no decisions. It’s usually a sign I’m mentally tired, not that I’ve "grown out of" games. Eventually, I get restless again and want something demanding.
PHILOSOPHY
A lot of my interests probably look disconnected from the outside, but they all come from the same place. I like pressure. I like measurable progress. I like systems that don’t care how I feel and force me to adapt.
To be clear: This site is mostly just a place to dump thoughts so they don’t stay stuck in my head. No audience in mind. No point to prove. Just a record of what I’m thinking and what I’m circling at the time.
If it sounds detached, that’s probably accurate. It’s not distance from life — it’s how I stay oriented.